one year

I'm still going to refer to us as newlyweds

and probably will for a long time to come...

but happy one year to us!

We did the damn thing.

We are celebrating by taking a road trip along the California coast,

so I've got to get back to the sand and the sea. 

This is the first time I have gotten to say this as a real, married person, so

Happy Anniversary, Husband.

xo. 

we're on each other's team.

parts of our dc trip were very "throw your hands in the air and wave 'em like you just don't care"
because we got to celebrate having each other in our lives for five whole years.
what? what?! yeah. five years. a blink of the eye in the grander scheme
but it's still 1,826 days
or 43,829 hours
or 261 weeks.
it feels amazing whatever way you slice it.

the formula for happiness (and i'm convinced this glee could be generalized worldwide...)
can be found in the way adam reid says "strength" with his east coast accent
and how he smacks his lips a la jim halpert when he thinks something is too silly for words,
not to mention the way he says "hello, my wife" nearly every night when he comes through the door.

we dined at one of our favorite restaurants, founding farmer's, that night
and shared a few of our favorite memories
and a few things each of us are looking forward to in the coming years:
homes, babies, a kitten, wrinkles, christmases... all the good stuff, not necessarily in that order
(though, it's a safe bet to put babies before wrinkles, but who knows what the future holds).
we clinked glasses to all the winters we've made it through together,
and maybe asked the waitress too many questions about how they made our food.

[it's a joke how unhappy adam looks in pictures, but he keeps telling me he goes for a GQ look. i don't get it?]

i'm practically banging my metaphorical knife and fork on the table, shouting "more! more!"
in anticipation of the coming years.
i could just eat my husband up.
i know the best is yet to come
and the thing is that i don't quite know how it could be better
but i simply know it will
in the way cheese and fine wine goes 'n stuff.
i wish this life were a book and i could peek ahead to the ending
to see what our children will be like
and what adam looks like with greying hair
and where we will end up
but i know i have to live it
and while i wish i could see our beautiful story ahead of time
you won't be hearing any "are we there yet"s from me.

for now i will relish in all the i love yous and the sight of my snowy husband walking in the door each night with a big ole grin, often bearing popsicles or the guava nectar i love so much
and take mental snapshots
for our "remember when...?" days in twenty or so years.

oh, husband.
i love you with all that i have.

xo.

i still remember that day we met in december.

december 5th was just a day to me.

i just hopped a plane to see my grandparents and to visit some friends. 

i didn't care about much in life at that time,

so when you sat next to me on the train

it was just another encounter with a stranger. 

i was just a boring girl

in a dull life.

today is no longer just a day.

i care so much about life now that you are in it.

you are no longer a stranger

and i no longer feel boring

or like my life is dull.

i love that you still remember everything i was wearing that day.

i love that you still have some of the first texts we exchanged on that old phone of yours.
i love that you still have that phone in a box under your bed...
and you have the memory card of the first pictures we took together and will not allow it to be used for any other photos.

i love that you had the courage to sit next to me

and the courage to speak to me

and the courage to call me

and the courage to call me again. and again. 

i love that you never gave up.

i love talking about our thoughts on that train ride now that it's in hindsight, 

knowing you were smitten 

and i was so obviously not. 

knowing that you called your friends and family afterwards 

and told them you just met the girl of your dreams after fifteen minutes. 

i love that you rode waaay past your stop just to walk me off the train. 

i didn't love it then.

but gosh... i just love thinking about it now.

it was just written in the stars, i guess.

no matter what happens,
this day will always, always be important to me.
always.
it's the day i met the man who would irrevocably change who i am.
you will never know how special you are to me
but i want to spend forever showing you.

and it was extremely special being able to visit the place where we met

since that doesn't happen very often.
i am so grateful to have been there.
my heart had never been fuller.

this video is a choppy, poorly made, partial summary of our little trip and will likely mean nothing to anyone who views it besides adam & i

but it makes me so very happy. 

enjoy lots of random, meaningless, probably embarrassing clips of two people who are in love! 

happy four years, adam reid. 

i have loved every minute of it. 

xo.

3 years ago

...i broke up with my boyfriend, michael.
...i boarded a plane to visit grandparents & friends.
...i got on a train after a long flight.
...a weirdo guy sat next to me that may have been wearing a top hat...

3 years ago {today!}
i met adam reid!

and it's been 3 years of this clown...

lookin' like a broke mountain man hobo

 last night i was reading emails & saved texts & im conversations between us while i was getting his gift together.

boy,
have things changed!

it's so funny to read the little things we used to talk about.
gosh,
we were so young and naive ;)

this relationship has evolved so much
into something i'm very proud of.

i love adam reid. 

happy "anniversary", reidzilla!!