Saturday, December 1, 2012


here's my opinion.
i think once you have found love that you just can't explain
then it's the very definition of "true love".
when it's indestructible,
and incomprehensible.

you can find your best friend,
the most attractive person in the world,
and the coolest cat around
and fall in love with them.

but when you find that you can't even understand the love that you have for this human being,
when you find that you are unable to explain how or why you feel this way,
and when you find that even you feel that the love you have for this person is too big to fit inside of you...

then you have done it.
you've reached capacity.
you've found what we are all looking for.

and i can honestly, truly, with my entire heart...
even the spaces of it i didn't know existed until recently...
say that i have that for adam reid.

i don't care to explain to anyone how or why i feel this way
and i don't understand it
and i sometimes feel that it's too big for my tiny heart,
it's real
and is indestructible,
absolutely unconditional,
and totally and completely incomprehensible.

but it's there
and it puts a skip in my step
and makes the world look golden.
i just...
i love him.
ohhhh how i love him.

no matter what happens,
no matter how trying life gets and how difficult things are
i just love him even more.
i don't care if i'm criticized or people don't understand it.
i don't.
at all.
i don't care!
i love adam reid.

and it is utterly inexplainable.



  1. This is so beautiful. Really, this is so perfectly put. I am just in awe of this. Absolutely lovely.

  2. ayley, i get it and i know and you never have to explain.
    i love how you always know how to say things.
    earlier this year you wrote a post and it was perfect and beautiful.
    i emailed it to cory and told him everything you said was everything i felt.
    thank you.
    i love your love.

    1. ah! i want to know which one it was!

  3. Totally right.I know exactly how you feel, and it's something that is so hard to express in words! Yet, you've done it quite simply and tastefully.

  4. i love this. and i feel this. it really is so hard to define. thanks for sharing this. it just makes me want to scream at the top of my lungs.

  5. i want to know which post it was, too! i love this post soooo much for so many reasons.


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