in your past life.

i sometimes feel restless

& a strong desire to rebel. 

i asked adam if he thought we might have past selves,

like

we weren't reincarnated as anything else,

but we did live once before

and all of the genetic pool just keeps recycling itself

and our souls live in essentially the same body

just at a different time. 

(he said "probably" and i punched him the arm for the lame yet concise answer.)

but i have always thought that one day i might find a picture of "me" that was taken in the 1920s.

there is this dormant part of me that feels the thrill of a good con.

it feels like this part of me lived at one time...

like i know and can feel exactly how it felt in a high speed chase

with a pistol in my garter
all while maintaining a sweet and pretty exterior.

lillian gish in "the wind"

there is a part of me that feels like i was once a fugitive on the lam,

that i robbed banks & ran from the cops in my bugatti type 44 until i lost them over the horizon.

i feel like i could have lived as an early 20th century bandit of sorts.

adam said that he felt like he might have worked with his hands

being an inventor 

or a carpenter

owning a small shop where he peddled his little wooden inventions. 

he said we probably lived in the same town

and i took cover in the back of his shop until the heat died down

in exchange for my love

and a cut of the money i stole so he could keep inventing & working to his heart's content.

it's a really strange feeling,

but it's always been inside of me since i can remember. 

since then, i've asked this question to several of my friends and family members.

it's turning out to be a fun, if farfetched, discussion topic

so i'd like to ask...

what do you feel like you might have been in your past life? 

comment!
or if you'd like, you may email me and i would love to share your response in detail here!

ayley @ thewildheartblog dot com

xo.