i've been thinking a lot about this lately.
if ignorance is bliss then does awareness cause unhappiness? i've been finding that the more aware i am of the world around me, and the more self-aware i am, the unhappier i become.
not just unhappy, but let's talk awareness for a moment.
many people develop OCD by becoming aware of germs and diseases. as soon as their eyes are opened and they are no longer ignorant to that inherent danger, they become obsessive about it. let's not use this as THE example to discuss because i'm entirely aware that dangerous and obsessive compulsions aren't innate. but let's just use the architecture of this example as a discussion point.
people become vegetarian/vegan when they drop ignorance surrounding animal based foods.
people Go Green when they become aware of the impact and consequences of ignorance.
people make lifestyle changes when they gain awareness of consequences.
awareness seems to restrict in these cases. however, i love being aware. i love not being ignorant. awareness opens the world up while simultaneously exposing the dark shadows and evil of the world. it's an awful catch 22.
i'm not talking about cautious living. i'm talking about living in extreme awareness. some of the most self aware people happen to be some of the least happy people i know. i'm exploring this correlation.
i have found that it's quite easy to be happy when i'm removed. but is that a good thing? i certainly don't find that an admirable trait in a human being, but is that truly the secret?
am i talking about awareness and depression as some kind of negative cocktail? are people able to have a wide awareness of themselves and the world and remain impervious?
does it make you a sociopath to have that awareness and lack sensitivity, that is, remain unchanged internally, or is that perfectly normal?
is it about choosing when to be aware and when to ignore? is there some kind of enlightened state that i'm missing here?
am i asking too many questions? yes.
anyway, i'd love insight on this matter. comment away!
it's been plaguing my skull for months.
if i can't find answers, i'm seeking this out. no jokes.