at its finest

walking outdoors is one of the best and most underrated activities that is available to nearly everyone.

i have decided that i will make it a weekly tradition for my future family to go on a weekend walk.

i work about 20 minutes walking distance away from adam's place of work.
so today,
i walked.

the second i stepped outdoors, it felt like spring.

moments are beautiful.

walking made me think about important moments in my past & my future...
decisions i've made,
people i've met,
mostly...
my future family,
thinking about bringing them to the world,
singing the song that makes me think of them,
telling them how long i waited for them,
how much i love them,
taking walks just like these with them,
wishing i could hold them forever as they are.

the beauty of a moment is found in the fact that it is fleeting...
just a simple and terribly temporary piece of time that makes life worth capturing on paper.

like...
verrrry enthusiastic hyperbole,
finding a quarter in the road,
chats with strangers while waiting in line,
spending money on something entirely hedonistic,
meaningful eye contact,
the way the sun moving across the sky creates the beautiful, dark shapes of shadows,
the complete and radiating joy from playing children,
thoughtful questions,
quiet i-love-you's,
and the mighty presence of someone who loves you.

today, i walked with that person.
i ate dinner with that person
and sat in beautiful silence with that person.

tomorrow, i will hold hands with that person.
we will likely eat dinner again
and sit in beautiful silence
and i will wonder how i can feel something so magnificent,
something that seems to want to burst through my skin and declare its presence to the universe,
and yet is perfectly invisible
and is perfectly mine to feel.

tomorrow i will hope that a few parts of this feeling
might hitchhike onto the coattails of the words i-love-you,
as i speak them back to him.


tomorrow i will tell him how long i've waited for him,
how much i love him,
how much i love taking walks with him,
and how i wish i could hold him forever as he is.


these moments,
brought to me by
two feet, two legs that took me on this walk,
the two seconds it takes to express love,
two eyes, two ears to take it in,
two people meeting,
two people falling in love,
two people
just living.

life is lived through moments.
big and small...
and it's these little ones
i really like.