dear players of hide & seek

no, not the dakota fanning movie.

no, not the amaaaazing imogen heap song. {but you could listen to it while you read this and i might love you for it...}

the game.

you can even play it with just two people 

and the rules are easy.

one person hides and the other person seeks.

you count to whatever number {no peeking} while the other person hides. 

when you are done counting you shout "ready-or-not here-i-come" and seek your friend.

oh yeah. 

it. is. a. blast.

it's more fun to be the seeker.

it's easier to win.

when you're hiding you obviously don't want to be found,

or sometimes you do. depends.

you usually are anyways.

and it's pretty unexpected.

one thing i always disliked about hide & seek 

was the fact that i never got to decide how long the seeker counted, 

even if i was the one doing the counting.

if i was hiding i'd want it to be longer so i'd have time to run and decide the best hiding spot.

if i was seeking i'd want it to be shorter so i could get around to finding them as quick as possible. {i mean... i had a friend PURPOSELY trying to get lost! i HAD to find them, right? oh man, what a tragedy it would be if i didn't}

never 

would i get to decide the number the seeker counted to.

i wasn't making any decisions here.

just where to look or where to hide.

i guess it added to the unpredictability of the game for me.

i keep trying to find things now.

find my lost keys. find what i want to do with life. find my future husband. 

find confidence. find where i want to live. find friends. find peace. 

find myself in this big world.

there are things that have found me but i didn't have enough time to hide.

and i'm sure there are things that are still trying to find me.

i wish i was the one counting now.

please, little game... give me a break! let me count now.

i'm ready. really i am.

i don't have the patience or time to count to a million before finding you.

i don't want to wait until you're done counting for you to come find me

and i want enough time to hide if i have to.

i mean, come on.

let's leave this game for the kids.

i don't get to make any decisions here.

just where to look or where to hide.

i have tried counting...

but how long do i have to count before the game is over?

{photo courtesy of phantom-kitty}