not another teen crisis

on thanksgiving,

i surprisingly had a grand meltdown. 

of all the days, right?

i was so very stressed for many reasons:

-since dyeing my hair blonde, it's so damaged that i can rarely wear it down.

-i have hardly been eating at all and gained about 7 lbs in the last 2 months

-my ipod fell and shattered 

-my car is still not working and i heard it could be super pricey to fix

-i'm living paycheck to paycheck and struggling to pay my bills {while living at home!}

-my third new phone in a month is not working

-bruno is going through a rebellious-teen puppy phase and chewing eeeeverything

-for some reason, i can NEVER{!} seem to remember to take redbox movies back

-i've been having heavy, pounding headaches daily

-adam started another job and i barely see the guy anymore

-my skin is starting to go all "before-picture" on me again

to top it off,

i seem to get sick all the time + my body is so sensitive to temps, foods, germs, etc. 

the list goes on,

and it's oh-so overwhelming sometimes. 

i can honestly say that, on paper, my life is in one of the lowest dips it's ever been.

adam came over for t-day 

and i completely acted out on him. 

so unfair!

i was crying and throwing myself onto my bed,

and possibly a pillow or two was thrown across my room {shh!},

but adam remained entirely calm. 

under some sort of odd love spell, he walked over to me, swept my messy hair out of my face,

and said,

"you're not a psycho.

well,

you're partially-psycho for thinking poorly of yourself right now.

but you're a cute partially-psycho chick.

all of this is temporary."

he then proceeds to provide remedies to all my problems

and says that i'm lucky to have a body that is so sensitive and in-tune with the world. 

i just need to stay more protected.

gee,

i never thought of it that way. 

he left me alone to lay in my cocoon of blankets

so i could emerge a grateful butterfly

like i should have been at the start.

so my self-centered meltdown on the day of thanks

ended up being capsized 

and i learned me sum perspective.

i just needed a soft and patient yet large and nerdy black individual to calm my crisis.

plus,

he smelled good

and that's like sweet lovin' for my senses. 

i quite like this adam fella. 

i'm thinking of asking him to go steady with me. 

good idea, no?